Welcome 2011. This year hasn't started off quite like I imagined, but I am determined to make this one of the best years of my life. We don't have enough time on this earth to spend too much of it being unhappy or upset; so this year I am going to be happy, plain and simple.
How might I accomplish this feat? Well, obviously a lot of circumstances that tend to cause unhappiness are out of my hands, but the power to just get over it lies within myself. So it's about time I buck up and stop letting the things that don't matter get in the way of my smile.
My new year's resolution may seem harsh to some people when I explain, but honestly I think it's the best option. I've spent too much time being there and helping, caring and getting walked all over by the guys I liked in 2010..and before. This time things will be different. I've resolved to make them trade me places; I'm not going to try this time...at least not until they've shown that they can put out some effort first and are willing to continue so they can win over MY heart.
Anywho, I'm off the soapbox for that topic now. Tomorrow I am FINALLY going back to see my wonderful cousin in Texas and we are going to have a blast! I needed this vacation really really bad! Hopefully my car can make the trip though....ole Bertha has been worrying me lately. I think it's time for a new one...but money isn't something I have a whole lot of considering I'm in college, lol.
So, keep your fingers crossed that Bertha and I make our trip safely and watch out if you're traveling I-35 with me! I'm the person you laugh at when you drive by cuz I'm singing and dancing...and usually I'll sing to you lol :)
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Friday, November 26, 2010
Man Up
Hey guys, I know it's been FOREVER since I've posted anything. School has been pretty overwhelming, and I'm sure that's not going to change. Right now though, I have some down time because it's Thanksgiving break and today was my last day to work til Tuesday :) (Yay!)
P.S. Thermal coveralls are a life saver!
So, I've been thinking lately about boy troubles again (surprise, surprise)...but it led me to another "aha" moment that may result in some courageous action on my part.
Being crazy about someone is challenging. Especially when the feelings aren't returned they way you want them to be. Sure, sometimes it's everything you want it to be: sweet, passionate, etc. But then, there's always that hidden concern and doubt...what if there's someone else? Is that why he won't date me? I've been given the excuse that work and school are taking up too much of his time (I can honestly say that's believable considering this boy works wayyyy more than anyone I know and still has to find time for class and homework). That being said, the time I get to spend with him seems like it is possibly the only free time he has, minus the time he tries to make for his friends...but something has me second guessing his excuse now.
I don't want to seem irrational, but come on, it's been 6 months since we've begun this whatever it is that we have. He knows, without a doubt, how I feel about him...and I have been very trusting and tried to help him through anything that comes up. I'm just being me, doing the things I'd normally do for a boyfriend (since that's what I want him to be, and he sorta plays that role anyways) and I'm to the point that it feels like I'm being used. I'm stable, always here for anything...and he knows that. Instead of that working in my favor and convincing him to go ahead and date me, it seems like I'm just being pushed further back on the priority list.
This summer when everything began, I was so happy. He acted like he really wanted to see me and we spent a lot of time together. He would ask to hang out; I never really had to instigate that at all. Now though, it seems like it's always me. I understand that he is tired from working a lot, but there are some times that he gets off early and never says a word. I get that he needs time with friends, but I'd like to be included sometimes too without having to instigate hanging out.
We talk about his past relationships sometimes and it drives me crazy. I'm so jealous that those girls had the opportunity to be with him, and I only get to be....me. One story in particular really got me to thinking, and it was only from six little words: "I was crazy about that girl". That tore me up...I want him to feel that way about me, and I don't understand what in the world is holding him back.
This leads me to the courageous act that I may possibly face...if he felt even close to what I feel for him, he would show it. He would act like he did when we met. So, if the something that has me second guessing his time excuse happens again, I'm going to go a little Randy Rogers on him...
"It's too late. It's all gone. You had your chance, you took too long like you always do. I won't wait for you. It's not a game. It's not your choice. Must be strange to hear my voice saying don't come back this time; it's too late for goodbye....
I know where I'll be. Somewhere you won't find me; in the arms of someone new who ain't a damn thing like you..."
P.S. Thermal coveralls are a life saver!
So, I've been thinking lately about boy troubles again (surprise, surprise)...but it led me to another "aha" moment that may result in some courageous action on my part.
Being crazy about someone is challenging. Especially when the feelings aren't returned they way you want them to be. Sure, sometimes it's everything you want it to be: sweet, passionate, etc. But then, there's always that hidden concern and doubt...what if there's someone else? Is that why he won't date me? I've been given the excuse that work and school are taking up too much of his time (I can honestly say that's believable considering this boy works wayyyy more than anyone I know and still has to find time for class and homework). That being said, the time I get to spend with him seems like it is possibly the only free time he has, minus the time he tries to make for his friends...but something has me second guessing his excuse now.
I don't want to seem irrational, but come on, it's been 6 months since we've begun this whatever it is that we have. He knows, without a doubt, how I feel about him...and I have been very trusting and tried to help him through anything that comes up. I'm just being me, doing the things I'd normally do for a boyfriend (since that's what I want him to be, and he sorta plays that role anyways) and I'm to the point that it feels like I'm being used. I'm stable, always here for anything...and he knows that. Instead of that working in my favor and convincing him to go ahead and date me, it seems like I'm just being pushed further back on the priority list.
This summer when everything began, I was so happy. He acted like he really wanted to see me and we spent a lot of time together. He would ask to hang out; I never really had to instigate that at all. Now though, it seems like it's always me. I understand that he is tired from working a lot, but there are some times that he gets off early and never says a word. I get that he needs time with friends, but I'd like to be included sometimes too without having to instigate hanging out.
We talk about his past relationships sometimes and it drives me crazy. I'm so jealous that those girls had the opportunity to be with him, and I only get to be....me. One story in particular really got me to thinking, and it was only from six little words: "I was crazy about that girl". That tore me up...I want him to feel that way about me, and I don't understand what in the world is holding him back.
This leads me to the courageous act that I may possibly face...if he felt even close to what I feel for him, he would show it. He would act like he did when we met. So, if the something that has me second guessing his time excuse happens again, I'm going to go a little Randy Rogers on him...
"It's too late. It's all gone. You had your chance, you took too long like you always do. I won't wait for you. It's not a game. It's not your choice. Must be strange to hear my voice saying don't come back this time; it's too late for goodbye....
I know where I'll be. Somewhere you won't find me; in the arms of someone new who ain't a damn thing like you..."
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Going crazzzzzyyyy
I feel like I am going crazy...my schedule is insane and I feel like I'm not getting everything done that I need to!
However, I went to visit Norman High and Norman North High Schools ag program on Monday. I shadowed their instructor for a day and will be teaching there for three days in December :) I can't wait to finally be a teacher forever!
I went on a job interview of sorts today....let's just say it wasn't a job for me, lol.
Aaaannnndddd....tomorrow I am free! I can start working out hard again and go back to wearing normal clothes.
So...I poured my heart out via letter on friday and still havent had a response....I'm so nervous and scared, and I am going CRAZY. I am trying to be patient because I know he is going through all kinds of stress right now and is busy, and I don't want to add to it anymore than I already have with the letter...but, man I would love to know what is going on.
Sigh.
Goodnight everyone.
However, I went to visit Norman High and Norman North High Schools ag program on Monday. I shadowed their instructor for a day and will be teaching there for three days in December :) I can't wait to finally be a teacher forever!
I went on a job interview of sorts today....let's just say it wasn't a job for me, lol.
Aaaannnndddd....tomorrow I am free! I can start working out hard again and go back to wearing normal clothes.
So...I poured my heart out via letter on friday and still havent had a response....I'm so nervous and scared, and I am going CRAZY. I am trying to be patient because I know he is going through all kinds of stress right now and is busy, and I don't want to add to it anymore than I already have with the letter...but, man I would love to know what is going on.
Sigh.
Goodnight everyone.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Recognition
As I set here on my break from classes today, I find myself watching MTV's True Life. The episode I just finished watching featured two kids struggling to survive; one attempting to raise a child and finish high school while her dad has no way to even support her, and her child's father never does anything he needs or says he will do; the other, a teenage boy in high school trying to convince his mother to get a job before they end up homeless. Of course, the show left you wanting to know more about how things turned out and if the two kids are okay now. What got me upset the most though is the advertisement that came on after the show ended. MTV says, go to our blog and see what you can do to help kids like these....sure, it sounds like a good thing, right? I question whether MTV themselves are doing anything to help kids like this...maybe instead of paying for stupid shows like Silent Library, Jackass, and (sigh) for some reason my favorite, Jersey Shore, maybe they could use that money to help less fortunate kids like these two. I'm not saying they don't do it, I'm just curious as to whether they do, and how much if they are in fact helping.
Yet another thing on my mind today fits under the category of recognition, as the title is aptly named.
I've been hearing more and more songs on the radio by men singing about "that girl". I wish that more guys my age would actually listen to the words being said in those songs. It seems like hardly any guys today are willing to date a girl, no matter how many times she proves she not only deserves a chance, but is willing to wait and still be by his side through anything that he needs her for. This all goes back to previous blogs on leading someone on, taking an opportunity when it's so easily being handed to you, blind leaps of faith, etc. I hate to repeat myself, but on matters like this, I think it's worth repeating numerous times until someone finally understands.
When someone proves to you that they truely care and are interested in more than the physical things about you, then you probably need to look a little deeper yourself. Don't pretend to care just so you don't hurt their feelings, all in all, don't pretend to be a good guy if you aren't. That just leads to heartbreak for the other person, and the longer you hold them there, wondering if or even thinking you share a mutual interest, the worse their heartbreak will be. This takes a lot of courage for me to say, considering I'm in the position of wondering if and thinking there is a mutual interest and care for each other with someone in my life right now...the reason it takes so much for me to say this is because, I'm happy right now for the most part; the happiest I have been in quite some time. I don't want to lose that, and if this person happens to read this post and take my advice finally, and it turn out to be opposite the advice I want him to take...I could end up hurt pretty bad. By that I mean, I have blogged time and time again on just taking opportunities when they are so obviously good and presenting themselves to you, letting go of your past (and understanding that you aren't the only one here who has been in love before and been hurt...finding someone who wants to make you forget that pain is what you're supposed to be looking for), and trust; and I want that advice to be taken. I DON'T want to be the one who hears, "I just don't care about you that way".
So, to every guy who has a girl in their life who obviously is crazy about you and you haven't given her a chance, and maybe aren't recognizing who she really is: I want you to think about every other girl you've ever known, every friend you've every had and every song you've ever heard and try to tell me she isn't all of that bundled into one person. She comes with good and bad sides just like you, maybe it's time you took a page out of her book and start embracing her for being just who she is, just like she does with you.
I'll leave you with a few song lyrics from two songs speaking about this:
We'll start with the Turnpike Troubadours:
"She stands her ground to fight me, but she cries when she's alone, oh she's every girl I've ever known..
her voice it is a melody, she sings just like a bird; she's every song I've ever heard
her heartbeat is a rhythm, it commands your every word, oh she's every song I've ever heard.
She reflects the world in happiness and echoes all the pain, and smiles the world to sunrise and cries to make it rain, and she hides the truth discretely, you'd have to take her word, oh she's every song I've ever heard.
well she's a sober sunday kitchen conversation with my dad, she's every friend I've ever had who never failed to cut a trail whenever times were bad.
oh she's every friend I've ever had.
She's a friday good time buddy, in the corner of a bar. But she'd fight the devil for ya, just for being who ya are. She's the last to cast a stone, although she loves to leave you mad, oh she's every friend I've ever had."
and now for Garth :)
"She's sun and rain, she's fire and ice; a little crazy but it's nice. And when she gets mad, you best leave her alone cuz she'll rage just like a river, then she'll beg you to forgive her. Oh she's every woman that I've ever known.
She's so New York and then L.A. and every town along the way, and she's every place that I've never been. She's makin' love on rainy nights, she's a stroll through Christmas lights, and she's everything I want to do again.
It needs no explanation, cuz it all makes perfect sense. For when it comes down to temptation, she's on both sides of the fence.
No..it needs no explanation, it all makes perfect sense. For when it comes down to temptation, she's on both sides of the fence.
She's anything but typical, she's so unpredictable. Oh, but even at her worst she aint that bad. She's as real as real can be, and she's every fantasy. Lord, she's every lover I've ever had...and she's every lover I've never had."
Yet another thing on my mind today fits under the category of recognition, as the title is aptly named.
I've been hearing more and more songs on the radio by men singing about "that girl". I wish that more guys my age would actually listen to the words being said in those songs. It seems like hardly any guys today are willing to date a girl, no matter how many times she proves she not only deserves a chance, but is willing to wait and still be by his side through anything that he needs her for. This all goes back to previous blogs on leading someone on, taking an opportunity when it's so easily being handed to you, blind leaps of faith, etc. I hate to repeat myself, but on matters like this, I think it's worth repeating numerous times until someone finally understands.
When someone proves to you that they truely care and are interested in more than the physical things about you, then you probably need to look a little deeper yourself. Don't pretend to care just so you don't hurt their feelings, all in all, don't pretend to be a good guy if you aren't. That just leads to heartbreak for the other person, and the longer you hold them there, wondering if or even thinking you share a mutual interest, the worse their heartbreak will be. This takes a lot of courage for me to say, considering I'm in the position of wondering if and thinking there is a mutual interest and care for each other with someone in my life right now...the reason it takes so much for me to say this is because, I'm happy right now for the most part; the happiest I have been in quite some time. I don't want to lose that, and if this person happens to read this post and take my advice finally, and it turn out to be opposite the advice I want him to take...I could end up hurt pretty bad. By that I mean, I have blogged time and time again on just taking opportunities when they are so obviously good and presenting themselves to you, letting go of your past (and understanding that you aren't the only one here who has been in love before and been hurt...finding someone who wants to make you forget that pain is what you're supposed to be looking for), and trust; and I want that advice to be taken. I DON'T want to be the one who hears, "I just don't care about you that way".
So, to every guy who has a girl in their life who obviously is crazy about you and you haven't given her a chance, and maybe aren't recognizing who she really is: I want you to think about every other girl you've ever known, every friend you've every had and every song you've ever heard and try to tell me she isn't all of that bundled into one person. She comes with good and bad sides just like you, maybe it's time you took a page out of her book and start embracing her for being just who she is, just like she does with you.
I'll leave you with a few song lyrics from two songs speaking about this:
We'll start with the Turnpike Troubadours:
"She stands her ground to fight me, but she cries when she's alone, oh she's every girl I've ever known..
her voice it is a melody, she sings just like a bird; she's every song I've ever heard
her heartbeat is a rhythm, it commands your every word, oh she's every song I've ever heard.
She reflects the world in happiness and echoes all the pain, and smiles the world to sunrise and cries to make it rain, and she hides the truth discretely, you'd have to take her word, oh she's every song I've ever heard.
well she's a sober sunday kitchen conversation with my dad, she's every friend I've ever had who never failed to cut a trail whenever times were bad.
oh she's every friend I've ever had.
She's a friday good time buddy, in the corner of a bar. But she'd fight the devil for ya, just for being who ya are. She's the last to cast a stone, although she loves to leave you mad, oh she's every friend I've ever had."
and now for Garth :)
"She's sun and rain, she's fire and ice; a little crazy but it's nice. And when she gets mad, you best leave her alone cuz she'll rage just like a river, then she'll beg you to forgive her. Oh she's every woman that I've ever known.
She's so New York and then L.A. and every town along the way, and she's every place that I've never been. She's makin' love on rainy nights, she's a stroll through Christmas lights, and she's everything I want to do again.
It needs no explanation, cuz it all makes perfect sense. For when it comes down to temptation, she's on both sides of the fence.
No..it needs no explanation, it all makes perfect sense. For when it comes down to temptation, she's on both sides of the fence.
She's anything but typical, she's so unpredictable. Oh, but even at her worst she aint that bad. She's as real as real can be, and she's every fantasy. Lord, she's every lover I've ever had...and she's every lover I've never had."
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Gimme some grease, I feel like the rusted up tin man over here
Well, here we are with the weekend coming to a close. Yet another interesting one for the books :) I love it!
Unfortunately, I have to give up my rather exciting and sometimes lazy weekend for classes tomorrow :( boo! This week should be pretty exciting though, or Wednesday should at the least. Temple Grandin will be holding a seminar here at OSU! For those of you who don't know who this amazing woman is, I will give you a little more info about her: She is a doctor who teaches at Colorado state university, she has designed livestock handling systems that pertain to fight or flight zones and reduce stress. Oh, and by the way...she is also autistic. I'm so excited to have the chance to listen to her speak! I have studied her livestock handling procedures and use them nearly everyday (at least the days I'm at work). Besides Dr. Grandin's eagerly awaited appearance here on Wednesday, I also have an etiquette dinner to attend that night with my friend Jake. We have to learn how to eat properly, lol...so that the next time we are at a fancy restaurant, we will know which fork to use first!
I'm feeling really artistic right now, and wish I had some paint! I sketched out an interesting design a second ago (too bad I don't have a camera anymore! Otherwise I'd post a pic).
I also just finished watching the VMA's....not too impressed with Kanye West...I don't know what to think of his new song, Is he parading the fact that he is not sorry about the Taylor Swift incident last year? Or is this supposed to be one of those "life lesson" type songs? Whatever the case may be, it sounded horrible and I was really annoyed with Chelsea Handler's attempts to be funny and Lady Gaga winning everything.
Blah blah blah, that's enough about that. I wish I would hurry up and heal up from this dang surgery, this elastic strap thing is super uncomfortable and I'm sick of being sore and bruised. On the bright side of things though, it looks like I will have minimal scarring! Whoop!
I have been sort of bi-polar feeling today...happy for a little while and then just super angry the next. I have no idea what is getting in to me right now, I've been doing good and staying pretty happy. I guess I'm just hitting that impatient point again and have been overthinking a lot of things. I will tell you one thing that makes it all worse, is facebook. I HATE that they have started putting the pictures of friends thing in the ad space on the side of the page. Ugh, thank you facebook, for constantly showing me pics from the past of people that I dont really wanna see..so depressing.
Well, I think I'm about to head to bed now. I'm super bored and should probably catch up on some sleep before class tomorrow.
Night friends :)
Unfortunately, I have to give up my rather exciting and sometimes lazy weekend for classes tomorrow :( boo! This week should be pretty exciting though, or Wednesday should at the least. Temple Grandin will be holding a seminar here at OSU! For those of you who don't know who this amazing woman is, I will give you a little more info about her: She is a doctor who teaches at Colorado state university, she has designed livestock handling systems that pertain to fight or flight zones and reduce stress. Oh, and by the way...she is also autistic. I'm so excited to have the chance to listen to her speak! I have studied her livestock handling procedures and use them nearly everyday (at least the days I'm at work). Besides Dr. Grandin's eagerly awaited appearance here on Wednesday, I also have an etiquette dinner to attend that night with my friend Jake. We have to learn how to eat properly, lol...so that the next time we are at a fancy restaurant, we will know which fork to use first!
I'm feeling really artistic right now, and wish I had some paint! I sketched out an interesting design a second ago (too bad I don't have a camera anymore! Otherwise I'd post a pic).
I also just finished watching the VMA's....not too impressed with Kanye West...I don't know what to think of his new song, Is he parading the fact that he is not sorry about the Taylor Swift incident last year? Or is this supposed to be one of those "life lesson" type songs? Whatever the case may be, it sounded horrible and I was really annoyed with Chelsea Handler's attempts to be funny and Lady Gaga winning everything.
Blah blah blah, that's enough about that. I wish I would hurry up and heal up from this dang surgery, this elastic strap thing is super uncomfortable and I'm sick of being sore and bruised. On the bright side of things though, it looks like I will have minimal scarring! Whoop!
I have been sort of bi-polar feeling today...happy for a little while and then just super angry the next. I have no idea what is getting in to me right now, I've been doing good and staying pretty happy. I guess I'm just hitting that impatient point again and have been overthinking a lot of things. I will tell you one thing that makes it all worse, is facebook. I HATE that they have started putting the pictures of friends thing in the ad space on the side of the page. Ugh, thank you facebook, for constantly showing me pics from the past of people that I dont really wanna see..so depressing.
Well, I think I'm about to head to bed now. I'm super bored and should probably catch up on some sleep before class tomorrow.
Night friends :)
Thursday, September 9, 2010
:)
Well, needless to say for all of you who know me, these past couple weeks have been rough and pretty interesting. After surgery and school starting, life has been hectic. However, I have found myself becoming much more organized and studious this year. I already have myself caught up to the middle of next week in a few classes, and have been doing pretty good maintaining a fast pace with all my assignments in the more demanding courses. I think this year holds a lot of potential for interesting situations in my life. School is more focused on what I am really interested in doing with my life and all the entry level courses are finally finished. (It's about time! I'm a senior afterall!) Besides school being interesting, I feel like this year will be interesting in my personal life...as for whether it will be good or bad interesting, I don't know yet, but I'm hoping it's going to be good! Right now, I'm pretty dang happy with the way things are going. Sure, I'm broke now, but I have a lot to smile about and some very amazing people in my life who contribute to my happiness :) Now if my best friends would stop being stubborn and just move to Stillwater with me, things would be even better!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Patience is a virtue
Recently, I had a conversation with a friend about relationships. romantic relationships, of course, that's always a hot topic in my life lol--sometimes i think i should have been a psychologist or something like that. i really love tearing situations apart and trying to understand what makes everything happen like it does, and why people think they way they do.
anyways, this friend and i were discussing how all of the good people who just honestly want to find "the one" already and fall in love, always seem to be the people getting played and hurt, or put on the back burner of someone's life. he was very adamant that he was going to change his ways and just become a jerk to girls so that maybe he could at least get a girl to show some interest. obviously, i was totally against this plan of his, seeing as i HATE when guys do that, especially when being the jerk means playing games.
here's where the lightbulb moment came in:
i thought about my own personal experience for a second and the situation i find myself in currently, and just told him how i felt.
Giving up on finding someone isn't an option. Lord knows that patience isn't a virtue I came equipped with, but I have faith that someone is going to come along that makes all this waiting and the effort I put into it, worthwhile. Sure, sometimes I get frustrated and wish that this guy (not the friend I was discussing this with, fyi) would just tell me that he is as crazy about me as i am about him, and that would settle things and we could finally make things "official". But, sometimes you just have to play the situation out and let time take its course. If you are happy and you trust that other person, then just go with it for as long as you can stand not knowing if you are in a relationship or working on it, or just whatever the case may be. All I know is that as impatient and frustrated as I get sometimes, I can't force myself to give up hope that we can just be together. If I give up, I could possibly be giving up too soon and losing someone that is not only important to me now, but could be important in my future. Don't get me wrong, I think about the side effects of this hanging on too, but I'm not saying you have to miss out on opportunities that are given to you. That's when you have to have "the talk" to settle things, you gotta put your heart on the line and your feelings on a silver platter and just hand them over. It worked out pretty well for me the last time; my impatience got the best of me and I saw an opportunity that seemed like one I shouldn't pass up. We had "the talk", and much to my dismay, things didn't quite swing my way that time. However, we stayed friends and he knew how I felt and what I wanted from him, but he also knew that if he wasn't ready for me and I saw an opportunity that shouldn't be passed up, I was going to at least try it. In the end, the opportunity wasn't enough to hold me, and sometimes they won't be. Sometimes you have to have the experience to realize what's worth holding on to or letting go. In my case, whether my patience sometimes wears thin or not, it was worth holding on to the previous and letting that opportunity go.
I think that when you meet someone that makes you practice the virtues that you maybe aren't blessed with, and you're okay with it...then that person has to be something special and if it takes waiting them out and just being there because you care, then you have to do it. All in all, that is the opportunity that you probably shouldn't miss.
anyways, this friend and i were discussing how all of the good people who just honestly want to find "the one" already and fall in love, always seem to be the people getting played and hurt, or put on the back burner of someone's life. he was very adamant that he was going to change his ways and just become a jerk to girls so that maybe he could at least get a girl to show some interest. obviously, i was totally against this plan of his, seeing as i HATE when guys do that, especially when being the jerk means playing games.
here's where the lightbulb moment came in:
i thought about my own personal experience for a second and the situation i find myself in currently, and just told him how i felt.
Giving up on finding someone isn't an option. Lord knows that patience isn't a virtue I came equipped with, but I have faith that someone is going to come along that makes all this waiting and the effort I put into it, worthwhile. Sure, sometimes I get frustrated and wish that this guy (not the friend I was discussing this with, fyi) would just tell me that he is as crazy about me as i am about him, and that would settle things and we could finally make things "official". But, sometimes you just have to play the situation out and let time take its course. If you are happy and you trust that other person, then just go with it for as long as you can stand not knowing if you are in a relationship or working on it, or just whatever the case may be. All I know is that as impatient and frustrated as I get sometimes, I can't force myself to give up hope that we can just be together. If I give up, I could possibly be giving up too soon and losing someone that is not only important to me now, but could be important in my future. Don't get me wrong, I think about the side effects of this hanging on too, but I'm not saying you have to miss out on opportunities that are given to you. That's when you have to have "the talk" to settle things, you gotta put your heart on the line and your feelings on a silver platter and just hand them over. It worked out pretty well for me the last time; my impatience got the best of me and I saw an opportunity that seemed like one I shouldn't pass up. We had "the talk", and much to my dismay, things didn't quite swing my way that time. However, we stayed friends and he knew how I felt and what I wanted from him, but he also knew that if he wasn't ready for me and I saw an opportunity that shouldn't be passed up, I was going to at least try it. In the end, the opportunity wasn't enough to hold me, and sometimes they won't be. Sometimes you have to have the experience to realize what's worth holding on to or letting go. In my case, whether my patience sometimes wears thin or not, it was worth holding on to the previous and letting that opportunity go.
I think that when you meet someone that makes you practice the virtues that you maybe aren't blessed with, and you're okay with it...then that person has to be something special and if it takes waiting them out and just being there because you care, then you have to do it. All in all, that is the opportunity that you probably shouldn't miss.
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