Go on and fall apart

Well friends, I'm sad to say that my streak of bad luck hasn't gone away yet.
Last night the boy I was so excited about, informed me that he doesn't know that he is ready for a relationship....awesome
We had a long, drawn out conversation that lasted at least two hours and came to a really unclear conclusion. He said he doesn't want to stop talking, I said that I'm not putting myself in a situation that I'm only gonna end up hurt in. Blah Blah Blah...we argued about who should decide whether we should keep talking or not and eventually I told him that he was going to have to do it. First, he needed to take a couple days and really think about everything and decide if having me in his life meant enough and whether I made him feel like a relationship would work between us. I told him I wouldn't be initiating so many of our conversations...and he agreed that I shouldn't have to....
Now, I'm sitting here alone on the couch, in the middle of a storm wishing that 1: he would just say SOMETHING and 2: he would be here.
Falling for someone takes an awful lot of courage and heart....and having to be in a situation like this for the second consecutive time is really wearing on my self confidence.

One of these days, I promise my blogs will get less depressing and will have some words of wisdom in them like I originally promised lol