Well, thanks to last nights events a new subject for my blog has come to mind. Here is one of those "lightbulb moments" I was talking about.
I had an interesting conversation with the boy last night...about trust.
As you recall, I just moved into an apartment with two friends, one is a girl and one is a guy. We have been and are best friends, and there is nothing more between us. But, the boy doesn't quite believe that. He told me last night that he has been trying to hide his concern about me living with another guy, but he was very uncomfortable with it. I tried explaining that the guy I live with is really like a brother to me and I have no interest in him whatsoever. He said that he has heard that all before, and that every girlfriend he has ever had that also was very close friends with another guy had cheated on him with that guy. As much as I tried to explain to him that I was not like every other girl, he was having none of it.
We discussed it further today, and now it doesn't seem to be as big of an issue...so I'm hoping he realizes there is a reason it took me so dang long to finally go out with him...and a reason I like him so much now...and that I am not going to do anything to ruin that.
Cheating is dispicable...I can't stand people who think it's okay. I have felt the pain associated with being cheated time and time again, and I could never ever hurt someone like that.
I really want this to work out. I'm really tired of things going wrong in my relationships, and this time I feel like I have found someone who will be the guy who tops them all, and finally appreciates me. But, I can't be sure. I'm trying not to fall so hard, but I think it's already happened...So, for now I am going to just let this all unfold however it may and hope for the best.
The lightbulb moment for everyone is this: being hurt in the past can lead to a whole plethera of issues in the future. Although it's gonna be hard to trust someone again, you cannot go around not trusting anyone for the rest of your life. You have to give someone else a chance eventually and don't assume they will be just like everyone in the past.
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