Today, I have been thinking about my life an awful lot.
Do you ever sit back and reminisce about the past? Or maybe think long and hard about your future?..well, that has been me all day today.
I'm not sure what has me thinking so hard, maybe it's because this is my senior year in college and it seems like time has flown by me. Perhaps it's because I have had very little time off work this summer and haven't gotten the chance to enjoy it, or do the things I wanted to do. Or maybe it is just because I'm in a funk again..who knows?
One thing is for certain, I need to start making a "to do" list of very important things for my future. I have 3 tests to take in order to be a certified teacher just in Oklahoma...if I want to teach in Texas, which has been on my mind alot lately, I have to take 2 of those tests again specifically for the state of Texas...each test costs $150 and I have to take the first one ASAP so I can student teach. So, number one on my to do list is SAVE MONEY and number two is STUDY STUDY STUDY! I do not want to have to retake any of those tests, lol. Besides taking those tests, I need to find a new job that is related to my major. I used to love working at the hog farm, but now it has just become a huge hassel. I don't get along with a couple co-workers, I have been working 7 days a week and haven't had much of a summer thanks to that place, and with school starting Monday, now I have holidays to think about. They are always a huge hassel. I want a job that allows me to have all the regular holidays off. Although my family and I don't always get along, I still believe that they need to be in my life as much as I can stand. I hardly ever see them because of work, and they are upset by the fact that I can never come home on holidays. Yet another thing to add to my list is something I have had at the top of my priorities for awhile now, but it never seems to happen for me. A relationship. I'm ready to turn the pages to the next chapter of my life...and I want so badly for a relationship to be included this time. Some people don't understand this. They say, "You're young and single, just go have fun." I really don't want to live my life like that, I want something with meaning. I want someone that knows I would do anything for them, even if it means doing the dishes or laundry which I despise lol, and I want them to feel the same way about me. I want someone that I can see and talk to everyday. Someone that makes me smile and laugh. Someone who makes me comfortable and happy with life. Blah blah blah, I know this is all mushy stuff...but seriously, how many times does a girl have to try and fail before everything just comes together??? I know everyone says that I need to be patient and it will happen when it's time, but patience is a virtue that I unfortunately do not possess in large quantities.
Anyways, I'm off my soap box now. Just some thoughts passing through my mind today.
Also....I have four days until I have surgery! Whoop! I'm so excited that I saved up all the money and am going to be able to do this :)
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